1-1-11; 1:11:11

Hey it's 2011! Happy New Year! *MAKE SOME NOIIIISE!*

So I guess, 2010 has passed so fast.
For the previous year,
I had the worst and the best months.
The worse and the better weeks.
The bad and the good days.
Blessed to have a few but super-bestest-greatest friends and loved ones around.
I still wish to keep you for next year and the next years to come.

I'm still thankful for the all the things I have had encountered during the previous year (and years of course).
No matter how difficult it was, I am still blessed of all the good things God has given me.

GOOOOOD VIBES FOR 2011. AJA! :))

Nostalgia

Minsan may mga taong ayaw mo ng alalahanin
pero unti-unting bumabalik para ipaalala sa iyo ang nakaraan.
Kahit na anong iwas mo,
pilit ka nilang ibabalik sa nakalipas
na matagal mong pinaghirapang kalimutan.

Multimedia: CLASS LOGO CREATION

Title: EXPLORE THE CREATIVITY IN YOU (V1)
Application: ADOBE PHOTOSHOP CS4
Art by: MSCRIBB





Title: EXPLORE THE CREATIVITY IN YOU (V2)
Application: ADOBE PHOTOSHOP CS4
Art by: MSCRIBB

Hope

Which is more difficult to handle, hearing the person you love telling you (s)he doesn't love you anymore or believing with false pretenses: pretending (s)he loves you still even if you know for a fact that (s)he doesn't?

Broken Shells

The easiest way to move on is to go back to where you have started, pick up all the pieces and put things back together on your own.

From Youtube Pt. 1

I am not really a youtube-r. I don't usually visit the site but it helps a lot specially when looking for something that could possibly give you inspiration. Here's one video, linked in my facebook account that came from youtube.

Life is Worth Living

August 23, 2010: Hostage Taking, Manila Grandstand

Kahapon, umuwi ako ng bandang 11:45. Sobrang busy sa daan. Parang normal na araw lang. Pagdating ko sa bahay, the usual. Tapos, habang nagwawalis ang nanay ko nabanggit niya, "Grabe naman! Hindi pa tapos ang hostage taking hanggang ngayon. Kaninang alas diyes pa yun." Ako naman, dahil walang kamuwang-muwang sa nangyayari, napatanong ako, "Anong hostage taking?" Hayun na nga! Sa Manila Grandstand.

Familiar ang lugar. Sino ba naman ang hindi makaaalam ng luagr na yun, malapit sa Ocean Park at duon ang lugar kung saan nag-oath si PNoy. Pinanuod ko naman nuong ini-open ng nanay ko yung tv. Nakita ko yung pangalan ng hostage taker, Senior Inspector Rolando Del Rosario Mendoza. Parang familiar yung pangalan. Parang narinig ko na at napanood ko na siya sa tv dati. Pero hindi ko maalala ang mukha. Habang pinanunuod ko yung insidente, sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, parang nakita ko na yun, parang yun yung nangyari nuong 2007. Yung hostage taking sa Rizal Park. Same situation. Pinakain pa nga yung mga hostages eh. Pero ang napansin ko lang, napakakumpiyansa masyado ng negosyador. Naisip ko tuloy baka hindi niya mapasuko yung hostage-taker. Napakatagal na, wala pa ding nangyayari. Bago ako umalis sa bahay kinahapunan, sabi ko sa nanay ko, magdidinner pa sila sa loob ng bus. Malamang gabi na matatapos. At totoo nga. Kahit nasa office ako, hindi ako mapakali. Gusto ko pa rin mapanood kung ano ang nangyayari. Hindi ko man napanood ng buo, napanood ko naman yung huli. Napaka-tragic ng nangyari. Hindi ako makatulog nuon. Na-shock ako. Kasi feeling ko parang naging pain yung mga hostages. Na siguro hindi ganun ang nangyari. Na walang pakialam ang pulis kung mamatay yung mga tao sa loob ng bus. Kahit ang langit, nagluksa nuong gabing yun. Sobrang lakas ng ulan. Pero kahit anu pa man, nakaplano lahat ng bagay. Lahat ng pwedeng mangyari. Lalo na nuong araw na iyon. Ika-23 ng Agosto, Dalawang Libo at Sampu, sa Manila Grandstand.

Ramadan (Day 1, 2 and counting)

Dito sa Pinas, ang simula ng Ramadan na isini-celebrate ng mga Muslim ay August 11 at matatapos ito (Eid Fit'r) sa September 9. Ito ang buwan ng pagninilay-nilay at paghingi ng tawad kay Allah sa mga kasalanang nagawa. Ito rin ang panahon kung kailan pinasasalamatan si Allah sa mga biyayang natatamo sa araw-araw.

Sa buwan ng Ramadan ginagawa ang fasting. Ipinagbabawal ang pagkain, inumin at marami pang iba simula pagsikat ng araw hanggang takip-silim. Ang pagdarasal, pagbasa ng Qur'an o matulog lamang ang maaring gawin ngunit ang pagtulog ay dapat naayon din at hindi nakaliligtaan ang pag-sala't.

Isang buwan ng pag-aayuno. Bago man dumating ang araw na ito, tinanong ko muna ang sarili ko kung kakayanin ko ba, lalo na at ang pasok ko ay 7.30 ng umaga hanggang 7.30 ng gabi. Pero kakayanin ko. Tutulungan ako ni Allah para makaya ko yun. Sa unang araw ng, gumising ako ng maaga. Excited akong mag-fast kahit wala akong kasabay. Hindi ko man maenjoy dahil nag-iisa lang ako at wala akong kasabay na nag-aayuno. Kahit minsan napapagod, nauuhaw at nagugutom na ako, ayos lang! Kering-keri! Para kay God naman eh. Ito lang ang paraan para magpasalamat ako sa lahat ng biyayang ibinibigay niya sa akin kaya ayos lang. At sa hindi ko malaman kung paano, lagi niya pa rin akong tinutulungan. Kahit gaano kabigat ang dinadala, nabubuhat ko parin na parang magaan lang. Subhan Allah! Nakasurvive ako sa first day. ^_^

Second day, ngayon yun. Heto ako sa office. Galing ako sa kung saan - saan. Akala ko hindi ko maabutan ang oras ng pagsamba kanina pero umabot pa rin naman ako. Masha'Allah! At kahit medyo inaantok, napapagod at nauuhaw na. Kaya ko pa rin ito! :) Binabantayan ako ni Allah. At sabi ko nga, para ito sa Kanya. Ilang oras na lang Iftar nanaman.

Masaya ako sa pagiging Muslim, kahit palagiang hindi nila naiintindihan ang pananampalataya ko. Ok lang. Basta naniniwala ako ng walang ibang Diyos maliban kay Allah at si Mohamad ang kanyang propeta. ^_^

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Ika-ilang araw ko na ba ngayon? 12th day ko na! Parang napakatagal ko ng nagfafasting. Nasasanay na din ako ngayon kahit papaano. Araw-araw, gumising ako ng 4 sa umaga, kumain, maligo, magdasal tapos matutulog ulit at gigising kapag kailangan ko ng pumasok sa office tapos uwi before 12, pray tapos balik sa office tapos uwi na ako sa gabi. Gumagaan ang pakiramdam ko. Masarap pala ang mag-ayuno. Eighteen days pa, at kakayanin ko ito. ^_^

Red

Red. It's something sweet like a candy. It's not my favorite color though. :)

Angels

Have you ever thought that there could be angels in human form?
Well I do. In all times that I had been wandering on earth, each time I pray, each time I do something, each time I decide, each time I ask guidance, Angels drop by in human form. They may be friends, family, relatives or even people you do not know.

Realizing the idea was when I am seeking God for something that most often than not, difficulties come my way. Whenever God cannot afford to look after you, He sends angels to guard you that is why, no matter how difficult things could be, you still manage to be thankful for in every difficult times, you'll realize you are still lucky to hand it mildly. I have met a few of the angels who have helped me through. Angels who are always there in tough times.

Have you ever thought you're an angel? Why not, you might be an angel for others as well as you find others an angel to you.

Another Tuesday Morning

Napansin ko lang, parang napakadaling lumipas ang araw. Parang kailan lang nuong July tapos August na muli. At kahapon nga ay Lunes. Minsan tuloy, gusto kong magkaroon ng stopwatch. Yun bang patitigilin niya ang oras. Hindi ko alam kung bakit gusto ko nuon pero siguro dahil gusto ko lang maranasang magpahinga kahit sandali man lang.

Minsan napakahirap gumising. Pero sa bawat gising, nagpapasalamat ako dahil nabigyan ulit ako ng pagkakataon para magawa ang mga bagay na naisin ko. Yun nga lang, sa mga bagay na yun, madami duon ang kinatatamaran ko. Kagaya kanina. Natatamad akong gumising. Pero anong karapatan kong magreklamo, sa bawat oras na binibigay sa akin, yun na ang pinakaimportanteng natatanggap ko araw-araw, hindi nabibili ng pera. Hindi pa ba ako magpapasalamat duon? Pero minsan, dahil siguro sa pagod, mas gusto ko na lang magpahinga. Parang nararamdaman ko kasing tumatakbo ako sa isang bolang hindi humihinto. Nakahihilo pero taong ko nga ulit, ano naman ang karapatan kong magreklamo? Wala. Pasalamat na lang ako at may isa nanamang araw para sabihing, "Haay! Another Tuesday Morning!" ♥

Resort

Breather

The Container

Citrus Effect

The Lake

The Tree of Life

The Saver

The Tallest Grass

Still Life

One Sleepy Morning

She woke up so early thinking she has a class at 8.
Rushed to take her breakfast, took a bath and changed.
Her mind was not set on focus at the moment.
Not knowing what to think first, either what to do next.

Sleepy is what she's feeling.
Uneasy.
Confined.
Sleepy, really sleepy.

Cherry Mobile P1

Few weeks ago, my sister was showing me a cherry mobile phone that fits in a glass wine. I didn't mind at first thinking it might be expensive. And since I already have phones, I never thought of buying one until yesterday that I saw our Dean handling a cherry mobile. It was so cute. Small + refreshing color + easy to grip = Perfect! So i really really was so excited buying one and i have it. :)

Teacher

Two weeks ago, I started another job. At first, I am so undecided but then when Kuya Mik spoke so I had to make a fast decision. I accepted the job but the truth is 70% of me doesn't really want it. Though it was kinda difficult to dig into it at first, I had to really do well for the sake of the students. As my first rule in life, "Though you may not like it, still like it and have fun doing it."

I just don't wanna miss my class. Why? Not for the sake of enjoying it but because I don't want my students to be asking me late that I am so neglectful of my task.

Looking at our lessons for the past week, I felt being absent during the days we've discussed those when I was still student. I barely remember a thing that we've discussed and all. Well, there's so much to learn really. I must have to strive more ... hardest this time.

Hospitality

Kahapon, sinamahan ko sa isang school yung dalawang hapon (H1, H2) na kasama namin sa office para mag-apply. Pagdating namin duon, nanduon yunug mga kakilala nung H1. Nagtanong ako sa kanila. Ok naman sila sumagot kaya lang, hindi man lang sila mag-smile. Parang sobrang iritable yung kulang na lang sabihan niya ako ng "Hello? Di mo ba nababasa yung napakalaking image sa bunbunan ko? Sabing NO ASKING!" Natatawa ako nanabubuwisit dahil tinanong ko naman sila ng tama, nakasmile naman ako, what the heck is wrong? So ok lang pinalampas ko yun. Since wala pa yung hinahanap namin, kumain muna kami dahil nagugutom si H1. Kumain na din si H2. Ako naman, busog pa kaya nagorder na lang ang ng pulpy orange. Pagkatapos nilang kumain, bumalik na kami sa loob ng campus. Naghintay sa office, mga isang oras din yun. Pagdating namin sa loob ng office, nakita ko yung dati kong teacher nuong highschool. Nakipagkwentuhan and all. Tiningnan namin yung oras, magiisang oras na pala kaming naghihintay kayanagtanong ako duon sa nasa loob ng office. As usual, wala man lang smile. Ito ang nakatatawa duon, dapat, nakangiti silang tumanggap ng tanong dahil ang department nila ay Hospitality Industry Management, sa lagay na yun, may hospitality ba? Tsk! Ang weirdo nga naman ng mga tao. :)

Accident

I haven't add a post for two days so I owe my blog a two. Few days, there were lots of stuff running on my head but it was chaotic so I cannot do a single blog post so anyways, here's something happened last Thursday night.

I went home early since I had nothing to do already. After reaching the house, I was so excited to watch Take Me Out hosted by Jay-R. No big deal about the show, I just like watching it. It was a dating game. I watched the next show and afterwhich I took a bath. (That's not the story yet.) I opened my laptop to check my Facebook notifications. Though when I'm lazy, I use my phone. It was eight o'clock in the evening when someone text my mom. I was so shocked with her reaction so I had to ask her what had happened. And then she said, my cousin met a motorcycle accident and they're on their way to the hospital. The accident happened around five in the afternoon and they only informed as at eight. I was so worried and felt crying because he's one of my closest male cousin. He's like a brother to me already. So back to the story, everyone was so worried, nobody ate, nobody seemed like to sleep. Until such time that my other cousins informed us that he's already ok. The next morning, I visit him at the hospital. He has lots of bruises all over his body and even in his face. I was weakened when I saw him but I can't blame anyone, it was a mere accident. Thank God he's still doing fine. It just needs him to get healed. Accident is just there, it's just that, people should have an initiative not to meet it.

I always thank God for keeping my family (parents and sibling) and those who are close to me safe and guided.

Worst Inventions

I was net scavenging last night, passed through Yahoo. It happened that I browsed the article about the 50 worst inventions. Funny thing, one of those is my favorite, french fries. Anyways, you should try to see it.

Where To Go?

Here I am again. I always lose myself. Not certain of what I wanna do. Imagining to do one thing then later wants another. I dunno. I am vague! That's the problem. I always wanna do something but some people just can't leave me alone. I always wanna be alone but some people try to get their lives on me. Arrgh! I wanna go somewhere. Out of the place where I am stuck at the moment. I wanna find the real me. I wanna have the focus that I am losing. I wanna learn on my own without asking someone on what to do. I am not young anymore. I am at the right age. Independent in big stuff but dependent in small stuff. Weird. At this point, as if I am not breathing on my own. As if I'm breathing with an oxygen tank. An imbecile body generated by machines. Darn! When can I have my own life?

Monday

Wala namang importante sa araw na ito. As usual, gumising ako ng late, kumain, naligo at nag-ayos ng dadalhin sa office -- laptop (check) cellphones (checks), keys (checks) at ang pinakaimportante panyo (check). Nakatatamad pumasok pero kailangang maghanap ng pera. Tingin ko ito ang ika-189 days na pagpasok ko dito. (Magbunyi!) Hindi ko pa nadededuct yung mga absences ko at yung mga araw na nag-OB ako. Hahaha! Ayos magtrabaho dito. Hindi ko namamalayan na ilang buwan na pala ako dito. Ayos ang trabaho, paupo-upo, internet, facebook, twitter, pakain-kain at siyempre every two weeks, gawa ng report. Ayos! Saan pa ako. Ang pinakamasarap sa lahat, kahit may absences ako buo pa rin ang sahod ko. Ayos na ayos hindi ba? This is life!

Kahit iba ang trabaho ko sa kursong natapos ko, hindi ko pa rin kinalilimutan ang mga napag-aralan ko. Ayaw ko munang lumipat ng trabaho, una, kung lilipat man ako ay dapat, mas mataas ang sahod ko kaysa dito, madaming benefits (wahaha), yung trabahong gusto ko. Teka teka, trabahong gusto ko? Hmm? Ano nga ba ang trabahong gusto ko? Hindi ko rin mapagtanto. Pagkagraduate ko kasi, akala ko ang gusto ko talagang gawin ang magmix and match ng colors, hindi tagapintura ok? Ang ibig kong sabihin, magdesign, maging graphic artist. Yun lang kasi ang (sa pagkakalam ko) alam kong gawin. Pinasok ko ang mundong yun. Magdesign. Gumawa ng kung anu-anong lay-out gamit ang photoshop. Kahit mababa ang sahod ok lang. Trip ko lang namang mag-apply nuon duon. Ok lang yun madami naman akong natutunan. Hanggang dumating ako sa oras na parang nagsawa na ako. (Napakamakulay na kasi ng buhay ko. Araw - araw na lang akong nakakakita ng kulay. Minsan nga tinatanong ko yung mga kasama ko kung maliban sa Red, Blue, Green, Yellow at Orange, may ibang kulay pa ba na pwedeng gamitin. Yung bago naman. Sinagot ako, "Meron" sabing ganyan. Excited naman akong malaman kung ako yun pala VIOLET! Violent tuloy ang pagkakaintindi ko.) Napagod. At hindi ko na din alam kung ano talaga ang gusto kong mangyari sa buhay ko. Isang araw biglang sumagi sa isip ko, paano kaya kung ang gusto ko palang gawin sa buhay ko ay maging basurera? Kapag nangyari yun, ako na siguro ang kauna-unahang basurera na nakatapos ng kolehiyo. Ako ang basurerang nakalaptop. Ako ang basurerang marunong mag-ingles, ako ang basurerang marunong magprogram. WTF! Natawa na lang ako sa sarili ko. Naghirap-hirap pa akong mag-aral para lang maging ganun. Walang hiya! Kaya gumawa nanaman ako ng goal ko sa buhay. Hayun, pagkatapos kong magresign as graphic artist, umokey ako sa trabahong inaalok sa aking ng kaibigan ko. Tinatanong mo ba kung saan ang goal duon? Mamaya,malalaman mo.

So yun na nga, pinasok ko ang trabaho ko ngayon. At, nito ko lang nalaman na marunong pala talaga akong magprogram! What the? Kita mo yun? Ang unang goal, makagawa man lang ako ng kahit na isang system. Yung pinakasimple sa lahat. At nakagawa nga ako, dalawa pa! Yung ibang goals ko kusa na lang dumadating yung mga yun. Pag dumating, ishe-share ko rin. Promise!

Hayan, patapos nanaman ang araw ko. Ano nanaman kaya ang mangyayari bukas. (Asa pa ako. Siyempre kagaya ulit ngayon.)

Note Posts

I can't load the page because it's to huge to contain by my mobile. Anyways, so... yesterday, I had all the chance to take a rest, watch flicks and eat (but not pig-out.)

I had no idea either on what to post here. Probably that's the reason why I didn't bother opening my laptop for hours that's why my laptop took a rest too. :] I was thinking of a topic but I forgot to jot it down. *sigh* I am trying to remember but I just have lots of things on my mind right now.

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Well ... that's just yesterday. I still have to think what topic should I post later. :}

Arrival Area

It was sizzling hot this morning. I was hesitant to go to work but I realized I need to. One reason, I had to fetch Nishimura Sensei together with Kuya PJ at the airport in the afternoon. Around 2:15, I went to the airport. I was there exactly few minutes before the plane arrives. I saw lots of people waiting at the arrival area. With different get-ups and I even find difficulty to manage knowing who are the relatives waiting for their loved ones to get down from the plane from those tricycle drivers waiting for passengers. And those drivers were the ones eager to see all passengers arriving. I waited for a while until I saw whom I was waiting for. While waiting for them to come out, I can't help notice the people coming out from the first plane carrying huge stuffs, getting out from the arrival area, rushing to their families and hugging them, saying hello, exchanging how-are-you's, seeing big smiles because of the presents (pasalubong). Suddenly, I missed my father who's working abroad. I wish to fetch him too the next time he'll arrive. After a while, Kuya PJ and Sensei went out so I had to see them. We waited for a ride and then I dropped by at Sensei's place to see if his place went just fine after two months of staying in Japan. After that, I went home.

I thought it wouldn't be a good day today but it's still is though I had to face some sort of irritation after reaching the office this morning. Thank you Allah for the great day! Wish to wake up with a beautiful sunrise tomorrow. :)

Friday -- Freeday

This morning I was kinda late. Well, I really am! I usually go to the office at 9.30 unless there are lots of things to do so this morning, I had to check our pc before going to work and realized it was already fifteen minutes to ten and so I had to rush up. I had done nothing (Seems like I'm working in a government office, workloads = seasonal) but to chat with Ate Espie. She has to stay in the office because the current in hers went off. The transformer was destroyed and they were at thirty-first to let it get fixed. I let her use one of the computers in the office since nobody is using it.

I didn't go home for lunch that's why Ate and I decided to eat outside. Her treat (Thanks Ate!). We ate at Lorita's (Great place.) We entered one of the waiters even asked how many are we seeing that it's the only two of us. We just laughed at it and even Ate even said, "He might have thought, we're four." We ordered Chicken Inasal (Super good food.) While waiting for the food we ordered I spread my eyes at the restaurant and saw few of my former classmates. But I guess they didn't even like to take a quick glance at me. *laughs* They were busy talking to each other.

The food was served fast! What's simply annoying was, the person who served the food doesn't even know how to put the plate on the table. He simply gave Ate the plate and it's up to her to put her plate down. What I did was, I waited for him to put down the plate he was holding in front of me until he realized that was what I was waiting for him to do so he did too. We have shared lots of stories even while eating. After eating, we felt like we had eaten too much knowing that it was just one plate for each of us. Now that's "sulit" because you'll get to eat one course meal for a cheaper prize. We went back to the office and continued sharing stories after-which, she went back doing her stuff. Since I wasn't doing anything, I simply watched the movie I downloaded and waited for five in the afternoon to arrive -- uwian na!

Changing Skin

As always, I have changed my blog skin taking me up for 3 hours. It's really difficult to pick the best that suits my mood today. Good thing I found one. I only need to do some retouch. This thingy made me decide to look after learning HTML and stuff AGAIN! Been focusing on some other things -- well sort of things -- that's why I cannot recall or I must say I only recall few tags.

This is just now. I'll be posting a few more later. I'm flooded with blogs offline but I can't post it during free time, one reason: I don't have net connection in the office. But I'll try posting them later since I'm done with the skin. Good night! :)

Umakyat at Naligaw

I have just thought about this a few seconds ago. The sentence makes sense. RBTL. :)

Life is Perfectly Imperfect

LIFE ... it may seem chaotic that makes things imperfect but life is still sweet to live and die for. :)

Groove to the Beat

A wallpaper entitled "GROOVE". I used two kinds of brushes. It's not as perfect as it may seem but it's worth the design. :)

Perfect Road

I never knew what made me write something like this. It just popped-up my mind.

Road to Success

It would sometimes be just staying there.

Procrastination

PROCRASTINATE now or later? Neither!

Pangarap

Hindi ko maalala kung anong gusto kong maging nuon bata ako. Siguro dahil hindi ko na inisip yun. Ang naalala ko lang, lahat ng bagay, nawawala. Hindi permanente. Hirap lang. Nuong nasa elementarya pa ako, tanda ko pa yung isang lesson namin nuon. Ang sabi sa amin ng titser namin, hindi dahil bata pa kami ay huwag naming iisipin hindi kami mamamatay. Lahat ng bagay nawawala sa takdang panahon. Kahit sino at kahit ano pwedeng mawala. Nuong araw na yun, naisip ko, bakit pa ako mangangarap kung mawawala lang din naman. Mababalewala, dahil mawawala lang din ako. Alam kong nuong araw din na yun, wala na akong pinangarap. Highschool, hindi ko pa din alam kung ano ang gusto kong gawin pagkatapos. Madaming nagdidikta. Kumuha ka ng kursong ganito, ay hindi iba na lang, yung ano na lang. Kung anu-ano. Hindi ko naman mawari kung ano talaga. Napadidikta lang ako sa gusto ng iba. Nagkaroon ng counseling. Fourth year ako nuon. Tinanongako ng Guidance Counselor, "What course are you going to get when you'll go to College." Napaisip ako. Lahat ng nasa isip ko ay mga bagay na sinabi lang sa akin na kunin ko. Ang sabi ko, "Sir, I have listed on the paper you have given us the course that I want to get." Tiningnan niya ang papel, "Oh, you have here, Information Technology, Interior Design and ... " may isa pa, ngunit nakalimutan ko na kung ano yung isang isinulat ko nuon. Ang sumunod na sinabi niya, "Alam mo ba kung ano ang ginagawa ng IT?" Sa totoo lang, hindi ko pa talaga alam. Ang alam ko lang marurunong sila sa paggamit ng computer. Nuon naman kasi wala pang masyadong kumukuha ng kursong ganuon. Marahil ay mahal at isa pa, mahal din ang computer na kakailanganin sa kursong yaon. "Ok, good luck on your college." ang sabi niya at nagpasalamat na lang ako. Yung taong nakausap ko nuon, wala na rin siya ngayon. Huling nagkita kami sa Baguio. Kinamusta niya ako at tinanong kung anong kursong kinuha ako pagkatapos ay nagpaalam na kami sa isa't - isa. Yun ang huli hanggang sa nalaman ko na lang na wala na siya. College, masyado akong naging excited. Dahil sa kagustuhan kong makaenroll na at mamakapagbakasyon, pumasok ako sa isang computer school. Marami akong naging kaibigan. At ang sabi nga eh nadevelop ko ang aking self-confidence. Marami na akong pinangarap. Marami na akong gustong makamit at siyempre, marami ding hamon. Ang pagtatapos, isa ring hamon na kusang humadlang ngunit hindi ko hinayaan. Maraming bagay, maraming tao. Ngayon, may trabaho ako. Pero hindi ang trabahong pinangarap ko. Hindi ito ang gusto ko. Tinatanong ko din ang aking sarili kung nasaan na yung mga pangarap ng gusto ko nuon gawin sa buhay ko. Pagkagraduate ko ng college, pinangarap kong makapagtapos ng Masters at Doctorate. Para masulit ko at maramdaman ko yung totoong feeling ng isang "graduate". Yung feeling na hindi ko naramdaman nuong nagtapos akos sa Kolehiyo. Hanggang kanina naisip ko na lang, ang mga pangarap ko, nasa utak ko lang. Hanggang pangarap ko na lang ba iyon? Gusto kong matupad ang mga yun. Lahat ng yun. Ngunit ang pangarap, nakakamit, sa takdang panahon at sa tamang paraan. Pag-asa para sa pangarap? Meron pa ako niyan! Ika nga eh, "Patience is a virtue."

Today

There's nothing new. Still sleepy. Can't think so well and worst is, I could hardly bug my system. Darn! My brain is kinda stuck and I .... haays! I think I need another whole week of rest. I still can't get away with the vacation I have had. That was a week of tiring vacation and I felt like I left my brain to where I came from. :|

Pagpapatawad

Isang bagay na madaling gawin para sa iba ngunit mahirap para sa akin.

Hindi dahil sa pride pero dahil sa prinsipyo.

Mahirap magpatawad kung sa huli, lagi mo din namang isisisi ang lahat.

Ibig sabihin, hindi ka pa nakakalimot. Ibig sabihin hindi ka pa rin nakakapagpatawad.

Kapitan Sino ni Bob Ong

Yesterday, I was doubting if I would go to NBS or simply go home but when I went off the office, I had to look for a tricycle and suddenly ask if the driver could bring me to NBS. At first, I don't know what I'm gonna buy. So I had to look around and then saw Bob Ong's latest book entitled "Kapitan Sino". I wasn't suppose to buy it but just because I don't wanna go out that stall without buying anything so I bought it. When I got back home, I had to read not just a page but the entire book (It's just a hundred pages though.)

It was cool. It's a story of an ordinary guy who happened to be so ordinary because he had found out that he has super strength and chose to help the people in their town but later disappointed that he did not even save the person he love the most and not even have the guts to tell her that he loved her.

I was caught by the question: "Ano ang pagkakaiba ng bulag sa nakakakita?" (What's the difference of a blind from a the one that can see?" and the answer is "Ang bulag, nakikita ang mga bagay na hindi nakikita ng mga nakakakita. Ang nakakakita, hindi niya alam kung kailan siya magiging bulag." (The blind can see what other's can't. The one who can see doesn't know when to be blind.) I believe in this. At times, people who can see tends to believe so much into things that they their eyes are showing them even if it's all a lie. And most often than not, they tend to be blind when it should not be which turns them to be stupid. You see things that are beautiful in the eye but totally ugly when you dig deep. People seldom know which one is real and which one is fake.

The blind can see the beauty within, the one who sees can see the beauty without. So true.